Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Same sh*t, different day

U HAD to BE here to believe it. These are'nt bad resolution pictures - thats how the weather was!! Rain lovers in Mumbai - head to Lonavla/Khandala ASAP!! Of course, be sure to witness full aunty-uncle-tinku-minku type crowd, but so long as u got your little coterie with you, your set.
The expressway from the eating place at Dukes Retreat - the clouds completely shadow the hills that lie beyond.

Justttt before it started pouring and I could see this no more.
Its amazing - how a change of scenery can just put things into perspective. I came away from a small day and a half long picnic with a calm realization of the battle that lies forth, and how much introspection lay impending - and ignored.

Do we actually reach a point in our lives when past experiences shadow future endeavours? Off late I seem to have proved everyones point - that I did live in a bubble, and being too much of an optimist and hoping against hope is for fools, that ONE day I will wake up with a eerie realization - 'I'm no longer that crazy optimist I used to be, Realism and Pessimism have overshadowed my dreams and longs and expectations'

Do we reach a point in our lives that we're so scarred that every experience seems like a re-run of the past? And if it isnt, well still feel that cause once bitten, twice shy? Should you learn from past experience and guard yourself better, or should you give new people/new situations a fair chance to get to know the real, soft, unedited, vulnerable you?

If you learn from each experience you go through and figure - 'I need to toughen up' - you may toughen up so much that no one will ever reach a point that they can hurt you. I wouldnt want this.

Else, if you DONT learn from each experience and continue being the same, you'd just be allowing people and situations to get the better of you and continue hurting. I wouldnt want that either.

What about the people you hurt along the way? The people who did no wrong except allow themselves to be caught up in your mess? Can you pass it off by saying that that's their battle, just like you have yours? Or should you not have allowed that person to get caught up in your entangled, entwined mind?

Where's that fine line? Between holding on to youself and letting go? Between loving someone and falling in love? Between learning from the past and looking forward to the future? Between being independent and fiercely guarded to learning to depend and share? I would really like to cross over to the other side....

7 comments:

"SunShine" said...

What if life is as simple as 2+2=4 right ?
Every experience is difference; every demand is different ; so taking a call is different. The position of line is also varied. But that hope remains giving meaning to life.

One of the best ever post you have written :-)

The knife said...

have u ever been to Matheran during the rains...mucky but pure heaven

Serendipity said...

@ SS - yes ma'am. wr be u these days?!!

@ The Knife - mucky is right. :P but yep, rains make it all - the hills and greenery and weather - delicious!

Abhishek said...

2 Years here and I havent used an umbrella...It still lies in my bag as it was...new and jet black...The rain here is so shitty... I miss the Mumbai rains... and yeah Khandala/Lonavla during that time is just heaven... :)

The Nomad said...

I knoww!!On my way to Pune a few days back, it was sooo green and pretty that I wanted to jump off the bus :) and ya, I like Duke's for their location, especially the dining room with the window seating.

The knife said...

@Nomad: Duke's does have a lovely view. It's a great stop over. But the rooms a re a bit rundown given the high rates

Anrosh said...

It is the NOW, what is most important. past,present and future are the phases of time..