Monday, August 13, 2007

And now forever's come and gone..

Friday night. 12.00 a.m. home. coldplay singing. Theres something about not going to a party and staying home with music and a book to keep you company that made me not go to a party, stay home with music and a book to keep me company. Right now coldplays saying "Nobody said it would it would be easy, nobody said it would be so hard, I'm going back to the start". i think these guys are singing to me.Of all the talents i don't have, i wish i could sing. dammit.

This blog's going nowhere I'm tellin you now, so u might as well stop reading. don't say i dint warn ya. saw Rush hour 3 some time back. HIGHLY RECOMMEND IT. Chris Tucker is a gangsta dude!

Am i strange that some music makes me melancholy? i was in this gigantic happy mood sometime back cos i met a very dear friend, watched a fun film, discovered i could say "Mutual funds are subject to market risks, please read the offer document carefully before investing" nearly as fast as they say it in the advertisements. yep. i got an alternate career option baby! Voice overs here i come :)

Suddenly my mood seems to have switched stations. Women have this strange tendency to be able to vacillate between highs and lows in a matter of seconds. right now I'm thinking of everything that's wrong with my life and what not.Was thinking about the word "forever" for a while. how many times Ive been told we'd be friends "forever" or he/she'd love me "forever" or you'll "always" be special to me. its funny how this seemingly infinite time frame comes with an outer limit. comes and goes.. it doesn't stay forever.. in hindsight, of all the people who told me they'd love me "forever" there are less than a handful that are still in my life - or is it just that "forever" is circumstantial.ill love you "forever" as long as i think we might have a future, or we'll be friends "forever" i.e. until we both find someone better? i dint make this mistake. I'm too much of a realist to have told anybody that I'd "anything" them "forever" .

Not that i don't like meeting people or making new friends - its inbuilt in my system to do so. but there's something about an old friend or someone/something you've been in love with that i just wanna go back to sometimes - go back to an old photograph, get inside, hold the person and not let go. How many places are bookmarked with a memory so surreal, that u almost revisit it every time u sit in that chair, or that rock near the sea or that theatre.. how many songs are entwined with the people they remind you of..

So if the "forever" people aren't there anymore, how do you shrug the rest of the things off?


ToOothlEss WOndeR! said...

I'm too much of a realist to have told anybody that I'd "anything" them "forever"
- So am I.

Nothing is forever.
and the best kept promises are the ones that are never given - meant, not pronounced.

Serendipity said...

@ TW - Agree throughly. :)