Wednesday, March 31, 2010

All I do is miss you, and the way we used to be.

I'm beginning to understand why people get 'boring' as they get older. Why butterflies in the stomach 'used to be' that feeling you knew, why it gets harder as time flies by. It was a strange, startling discovery when a song played in the background yesterday - Romeo and Juliet by Dire straits. One of my favorites.. Ive been humming it ever since.

I'm a music person - I had a song for every mood - mellow, happy, sad, sad-sad, happy-sad, melancholy, in love, heartbreak, make up, break up, aloof, spaced out.... I had one playing in my mind everyday and that song defined my mood. I remember this week that "Bittersweet symphony" was the song in my mind and I went about the week feeling randomly disjoint and pieced apart. This other time Boulevard of broken dreams was playing on my mind and I had a nasty few days since it reminded me of a friend whose no more. And it was his favorite song. Hungry eyes was that song I danced to. You get my drift.

Today on my way to work in the cab, I realized how the music in my life has been replaced. Slowly, without realizing the transformation I was talking to myself each day - debating the outcome of my day, the presentation I am supposed to make, that conversation I had last night, the emails I need to reply to, where my relationship is going, what Im going to write in my application essays... its all getting thought without a background score in place.

It was after that I hooked up my laptop and played back some of my favorite music - Mark Knofler, Coldplay, maroon 5, floyd... its safe to say that the state Im in currently could be called "on a trip" or "spaced out" or some other such vaguely intense definition.

Each song hides moments, memories - nestled in the notes, the lyrics. Its like Mark Knofler said "All i do is kiss you - through the bars of a rhyme". I've hidden so many stolen moments, kisses, glances, rides, tears, fears in the folds of so many songs... and discovering them sometimes by accident is just a delicious tingle - a feeling so infinite, of being able to travel time and 'relive'.

Moments have a way of shrinking when put into words - but they magnify when romanced with music. making love, out of nothing at all.

Here's to a homecoming - to my favorite boys - Dave Matthews band , Dire Straits , maroon 5, coldplay, Neil Diamond, Randy travis, Richard Clayderman, and my girlies - Norah Jones, Alanis and Tracy.
The Song I'd dedicate right now? 1992 Serendipity - Forever and Ever, Amen. Randy Travis. (click link for song)

13 comments:

snow said...

my heart started racing so fast as I read further and further down this post... every word you've written echoes with some of my thoughts... loved this piece of writing, Seren :) *off to listen to some Green Day*

Smita said...

You are so right!! It happens with me also! Every song has a memory associated with it & it just takes you down the memory lane :)

Serendipity said...

Hey, Snow! glad your back. Heck, glad Im back :) How u been?

Hi Smita - :) easiest way to go on "a trip" :D

The knife said...

this is a song full of memories... and now accompanies 'boring' old me during even more 'boring' evening walks

The Dude said...

"the only trouble with life is that there's no background music..."

Ive loved that line since the first time I heard it..
I know exactly what you're talking about at the start of your post and all I can say congrats on realising it and getting back to the music. Its one of the things that give joy in life without asking anything in return.

Nice blog, hope to drop in more often..

Cheers..

筱婷筱婷 said...

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Phoenix said...

Memories sometimes make you eel so good about life
But only sometimes

Tamanna Mishra said...

Some of my favourites too - been there, those phases of no background music. So not worth it.

Good luck with all the things you are planning to do girl, with the background music from hereon :)

S said...

"a delicious tingle - a feeling so infinite, of being able to travel time and 'relive'."

A delactable piece of writing !

I have folders on my laptop with years written on it- the memorable ones- and the songs I used to listen to then- it takes me back to those days again..feels amazing :)

ani_aset said...

wow i'll have to go through this list of yours once again..i could feel how muc we love our music through your post :)

Aniket said...

Bittersweet Symphony is my go to song too along with. And aloof songs being Enya - Elysium and Requiem for a Dream.

And my all time fav. is Moonlight Kiss from Serendipity OST, which is how I landed up on your blog in the first place (long long time ago...) :)

muthu said...

Songs does bring out, emotions and memories that have gotten into out hearts along with their melodies....

& yeah, your list and the songs are awesome...

I esp love - Maroon 5

Poonam J said...

Nice post....life is essentially useless without music, said somebody...so true.For me life and music are an extension of each other.And in music passions, emotions enjoy themselves.Helps me connect to the earliest and the latest times.I related to your post.