Wednesday, June 17, 2009

I cant believe it still. More than a day later I cannot yet believe
that my friend... Sam, all of 25 years of age is no more... He met
with an accident on his bike and had a headlong collision with an
oncoming truck which sped out of control. I wish he hadnt passed away
on the spot... I wish he had a chance... I wish someone, anyone called
me and told me that this is a miserable joke being played on us.

People are not meant to die at this age.. 25. Its as though god showed
you a glimpse of what life is, and before you could enjoy it, your
times up. I cannot start to imagine what his parents and younger
sister must be feeling... Given that I, who used to meet him once a
year and speak to him on and off have been shocked out of my mind and
spent the last two days in complete denial and shock. I wish i dint
have to learn the hard way that life is too short to take anyone for
granted. promise me youll learn from my mistake.

Its such an irony that he spent the last two years working in a
foreign country, came back for good only this saturday and passed away
yesterday. Its almost as though he came to say goodbye. I can hear his
voice telling me hes coming to Mumbai this weekend and well go to theo
and eat the brownie and gaylord and eat the muffin like old times and
me making fun that hes competing with a football.

I can hear his voice which i spoke with just a few days ago and it
seems impossible that it wont be around.

He was one of those friends who just made his way into your life, just by being there so unquestioningly. Whenever he was in Mumbai, he'd come from one end of town to the other just to make it a point to meet me. I on my behalf was horrible and caught up in my routine. What do I even say... Im remembering that time I just wanted to take a break and quit for no reason, and he offered to sponsor me for two months!! Knowing him, he wouldve done it.

I took him for granted on
more than one occasion and shamefully have to admit that I dint
deserve someone who stood by me unconditionally, no matter how i
behaved... I dint deserve to know hell always be around.
None of us do. If you love and care for someone, let him or her know.
Dont leave home or go to bed unresolved.
Lifes way too short...
Sam, you will be missed. Forever.

To everyone else - We had a safety workshop organised by Castrol a few months ago. The one thing that reverbrates in my mind from that workshop was the line 'The ONE time you didnt wear your helmet/seatbelt was the ONLY time you needed it'. And how true it is. Sampath was not wearing a Helmet, and I beg everyone reading this, to NEVER EVER drive without precaution. Anything can happen even in those ten minutes that you dont wear it, please dont learn it the hard way.

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Sent from my mobile device

16 comments:

ani_aset said...

feel really sorry dear for your friend..i agree, about taking time out for your loved ones.Take care

Kalyan Karmakar said...

I can really feel your pain Serendipity. I can empathise with your feeling of 'if only I.' I know that feeling too well.

I hope Sam finds every happiness in after life. And that his family and loved ones have the strength to face this great tragedy.

And that you find the strength to go to Theo and have a brownie for Sam

Take care

SD said...

My condolences. I can understand how you feel. I hope his soul rests in peace. that is all I can say, because words are not enough to take the pain away.

Piper .. said...

I`m so, so sorry for your loss sweetie.. I dont know what else to say, except that I do understand the grief..
Sometimes helmets just arent enough you know. And that`s why life seems so scary, so unpredictable. Hugs

Aniket Thakkar said...

I know nothing anyone says would make this any easier. I had a junie in my Hostel who passed away in second year. He was just 20. When his parents came, I couldn't look at their eyes.

Pesto Sauce said...

I too lost a friend recently....on Sunday to be precise; died at age of 28 in Mumbai only

eye-in-sty-in said...

That sucksss!! Such a tragedy! :-(

May his soul rest in peace!

agent green glass said...

serendipity, hugs. i hope sam finds happiness where ever he is.

Anonymous said...

Came across your blog by accident. I'm so sorry for your loss. I had a sister and I wish I had told her how much I love her when I had the chance. Now I've made sure that I don't repeat my mistake.

Magical Homes said...

I'm really sorry. You take care,girl.

Ire said...

I am really sorry! You please take care!

The Big Bad Wolf said...

Hey S,

We are all in shock about his death.

Sam's Facebook page has become a shrine of sorts. If you get the time do visit and leave your comments

Aditya said...

You know you're growing old when your uncles and aunts start passing away.

You know you're old when you suddenly lose friends.

I know how you feel. I can only offer you my sympathies, S, and a hug.

Take care.

dipali said...

I am so sorry to hear this. May his family and friends find the strength to bear this loss. Yes, safety measures have to be followed all the time.

Iya said...

i am so sorry.this is very sad..please take care..

Rohini said...

Just read this. *Hugs*